For starters, we have a super colicky baby. The last three months have been a complete struggle. Some days I am
not even sure how I am functioning. For about 8 weeks straight I spent most of my nights in the bathroom with our baby girl running the blow dryer, it's the only thing that helped calm her during our colic hours, which lasted from 6pm to 1am - saying it was rough is an understatement. I can't begin to tell you how much of struggle it has been, especially with a two year old running around. I am not going to sugar coat it for anyone. Being a mom of two is much harder than I thought and having a fussy baby on top of it can be exhausting. You see, Spencer was not a colicky baby. You could put him down and get things done, as long as he could see you he was happy. Breanna won't ever let me put her down most days and so I am learning to cope with my house being a disaster and meals being easy and quick. Since becoming a mom I enjoy cooking a meal for my family, when before I hated just being in the kitchen. Now this isn't to say that some nights Spence just gets pb&j because that's all his sissy is going to let me make before she's screaming and red in the face. But most night I like to prepare a nice meal for all of us. I enjoy our dinners because it's the one meal we all share together and I make it a point that we all sit down together at the table and eat. And every night we do just that, mostly with a baby in our hands.
Thankfully sissy is starting to grow out of the colic, most nights she doesn't even fuss and when she does it's only for an hour. She sleeps through the night and today she rolled over onto her left side for the first time. You forget how excited those little milestones make you. I yelled to Kyle she was rolling over and then Spence yelled it too and we all sat there clapping and cheering her on as she looked at us and smiled. In that moment all of the stress and exhaustion from the last three months disappeared. I am beginning to realize these phases won't last forever and before we know it she will be Spencer's age and I'll have to beg for a hug or a snuggle so I am just going to continue to embrace all moments, good and bad and when we look back we will be sure to tell her she was a colicky baby but, she was such a happy baby. Because let's face it, no parents let's their kids live down the struggle of colic.
And as if colic wasn't enough our family has been going through some things, I am not able to share them with you at this point but, in the coming months I plan to share with you how our family overcame our current struggle. I am proud as a mom when a friend said to me the other day, "just looking at Spencer you'd never know your family was going through all of this, he's so happy and not affected" (you know who you are) and to be honest, you made me feel like a million bucks, best parenting compliment I have ever received especially when you're giving it to me, the biggest stress ball around. So we're growing through what we're going through and we will be better for it.
I am learning life can be messy but, it's sticking together as family that gets you through. I am learning it's the little things in life that bring us together and what we remember. And even though we've entered a period of our life where things are a little upside down and there's quite a few bumps on our road were still looking up and moving forward. So stick around with us and if you could say a small prayer for our family and send us positive vibes. It's all greatly appreciated!